One Year ago, and one year later....

I can't believe a year has passed since that day. The one day I thought my world was going to end. One year later, things are... so very different.

I'm the happiest I've ever been!

How truly intriguing it is that a person could change so much in one year! I can't give myself all the credit though. It has taken the pain of many losses, the excitement of new friendship, the blossoming of a new relationship, and ever changing life.

It has taken me so long to finally realize, but horrible terrible things, as awful as they may be, make the small happy things in life so important. It's necessary: the pain, the tears, the struggle, the fears. At the end of the road, there is a beautiful rainbow, and I cant believe I've gotten here. Sure, it's still raining, but it's absolutely brilliant, the most beautiful thing in the world.

I want to thank Charles, for giving me someone to believe in. For giving me a chance to share my pain and loneliness with another person and to have them understand. To find friendship in one-another and confide together, though we've never met face-to-face. You have become one of the best friends I have ever had. Although I still don't know everything about you Charles, I feel like we are close friends. It might be one-sided, but I look forward to meeting you and being your Anime contention tour-guide!

I'd also like to thank Lee. She's my home away from home. My adopted sister. You're like a real sister to me, we might fight or disagree sometimes, but we love each other for who we are. Sis, I love spending time with you. You're one of the few reasons I still feel the desire to come home to my hometown. I like having fun with you and feeling like I am part of a family. I wish we could spend more time together, but hopefully now that I have a car I can come visit more!

I want to thank the ladies in the HR office. You are all amazing women. You make me feel so loved and appreciated. I might go to work and joke about the money going straight to my student loans, but truthfully I love going into work because it is such a wonderful place to be. You're like my moms away from home! I wish I could really tell you how much you truly inspire me and make me want to do wonderful things in the world.

To all my friends at school, I love you. Freshman year was really hard for me because I was afraid and homesick. Sophomore year I began to branch out and that's when I met most of you. This year, I am happy that there are some of you I have grown even closer to, while others have been away studying in other countries (you lucky ducks!).   

                    Deijee, I'm happy we've had more time to hang out. I've really enjoyed our trips to the humane society together. I'm glad you don't seem to mind how I'm almost obsessively in love with all the kitties.

                    Katy, I have been happy to eat lunch with you so much! When I've been in hamwil, at least. I know you've missed our friends who've been abroad, but I hope at least I've been a fun temporary fill-in. :3

                    Shannannn, I love that we are compatible forms of weird. We should form our own cat-girl cult at school and just walk around with ears and tails and start a fashion trend. I've had a lot of fun hanging out with you in class and between our classes as well. You make me feel like it's okay to be me, even if that means I do weird things. 

                    Kyoto-buddy,  I wish our class trip to Japan had lasted more than two weeks. I'm glad we survived, I enjoyed it. As well as seeing you very sparsely throughout the semester. Sometimes I wish I could hang out with you more, but then again, I know that you get so busy with music (and your music friends....). 

Last, but not least, there's someone very important I need to thank. He was there for me, for so many things. We found each other when neither was looking. Our worlds just simply collided. Whether it was fate, instinct, "God", coincidence, or something else, I'm glad it happened. You have been the best thing to ever come into my life. 

I have you to thank, for introducing me to people who act like reasonable human beings, people that you call friends. 

I have you to thank, for giving me the motivation to get my drivers license, despite the fact that driving is still scary.
I have you to thank, for encouraging me to seek help for my depression. Now I am able to live a normal life.

I have you to thank, for showing me that I am a person worth loving and not just worthless garbage. 

I have you to thank, for accepting me for me.

I love you, and I look forward to the day when we are old and grey, sitting on the couch together, while we still giggle at each other.

Excitement for winter break 2012!

I am so excited for winter break ^_^

I will be spending a majority of the break at my boyfriend's house. Enjoying the festivities with him and his roommates. I will hopefully have a decent winter job by then, so I can help

There are so many things I am looking forward to doing! OwO

1. Being a pseudo-housewife

I am so excited that I will be staying over there. I will have so much time to get that four-man hut (disaster) into a respectable living area! I'm going to wash the floors until they sparkle, get the kitchen cleaned up, organize the refrigerator, make lunches for my honey, and most importantly: welcome him home after a long hard day of work!

2. Making disgustingly-adorable lunches

Uwaa~ I want to make him yummy boxed lunches! I will cook him eggs and such for breakfast. And I would love to prepare bento-boxes full of rice balls, hotdog octopi, adorable veggies, and other yummies! And it would be made complete with a little note included inside, wishing him a good day at work. <3

Oh goodness.... my maternal genes must be really kicking into overdrive... I want munchkins to make them little boxed lunches!!! >w<

3. Skyrim

... need I say more?

4. The girls

I'll get to see my little girls every day <3 I love my mice so much. I'm glad my mister loves them just as much as I do!

Now I'm going to go dig through my grocery bag to find some food to eat <3

Desperate times call for desperate measures

I need a feline in my life.

Living in the dorms is nice and all, especially since a good chunk of it is covered by scholarship, but still, I can't help but feel trapped and my wallet feels like it's withering away. Ever since the school's announcement last year that now ALL students are required to live on campus, I have been miserable. I dream of the day when I can live in housing that allows cats.

There are a few exceptions to the housing rule, however:
- Students over 23 years olf
- Students with family living near campus
- Students who have dependents
- Students who are married
- Students with physical or phsychological issues not able to be assisted by university housing.

Hence, I am now plotting my way towards cat ownership.

STEP ONE: There is one viable option of living on campus that allows cats and dogs... It's basically the school's ONE option that is similar to apartment living. However, to apply one must go through a separate application and interview process. I'd also need to find a roommate ahead of time in order to apply.

STEP TWO: I could ask my school's doctor to sign a note saying my mental state is unstable without having a furry friend, and therefore I must be allowed to have one as a roommate or be permitted off-campus.

STEP THREE: I could get pregnant or adopt a child from Nigeria.

STEP FOUR: I could ask my significant other to marry me, at least for living purposes.

STEP FIVE: I could drive my car into a building, physically handicapping myself, to the extent that I would not be able to use dormitory stairs.

STEP SIX: I could ask a townie to pretend to be my relative.

This is actually kind of fun! But as I well know, I will be doing no such crazy thing. Let's just start with the simplest method and see how it goes?

Halloween Party

So as the officially unofficial co-PR of anime club, I had willingly agreed to head the committee to plan the anime club halloween party. Last year's was a complete failure, but the year before it was more like a nice simple gathering. This year's party took place last night.

I hate to toot my own horn, but this year's party was a hit!

I was so happy. I've been so stressed this past week, I've been having nightmares and I missed all my classes yesterday because I felt so emotionally and physically out of whack. Somehow though... SOMEHOW, even though we ended up not having any sort of budget for the party, somehow everything fell into place! The Prez and I bought food from the campus convenience store, I ran out to walmart and bought some glowsticks for the dance party, and my other co-PR officer brought the anime for the viewing room.

There was a cool rave/dance with anime music. The costume contest went well, as the glowsticks were given out as prizes. There was also a pool table down there where I learned how to play "Purple Rain" on the pool table (and subsequently earned the bruise still throbbing on my right thigh).

And I was so happy... I got serenaded by the prez with the "Dammit Janet, I love you" song in front of everyone, as thanks for making the party happen.(Mr. Beardly came to the party too... and he thought it was cute, but he was also prepared to kick his ass if he tried to do anything funny like kiss me.) I was sad though, nobody said "Dammit Janet, you're a slut!" like they do in the Rocky theater showings.

Uwah, I actually did something right for once!!! This is very encouraging. :)

Afterwards, this poor kitten PTFO'd in bed. A day well done. ^_^

21 years of Janet the Planet

Dear friends, family, and internet anons,

This past Saturday was my 21st birthday. I am now almost an official adult [although it will be 4 more years until I can legally rent a car.]

Friday evening I was able to celebrate for free since my campus had a free event at my dorm. My friend Katy and I met up for dinner, then we played some of the board games that were scattered about. I ran into one of my Pokemon friends who helped me find an Eevee in the game (and actually, I ended up hanging out with two more of my Pokemon friends XD). At 11 they even had a rave/dance going on with FREE GLOWY NECKLACES! I put one on my head and one hanging down from my belt-loop as a tail. =^_^= Needless to say, I was a happy kitty!

They also played Gangnam Style. I was ecstatic.

And the whole evening was spent alcohol-free. XD

I did, however, buy myself a nice bottle of wine the day after, on my birthday. My significant other and I had a fun evening hanging out with his roommate and his girlfriend, watching videos on youtube and playing games. I somehow managed to scarf down an entire half a large pizza in under 10 minutes.

Sunday marked the 8 month mark for me and my handsome man. We went to his friend's wedding. It was a very lovely little ceremony! The food was delicious, the bride was beautiful, the people were kind, and there were even some nerds there like us! There was also an open bar. I embarrassed myself with my lack of alcohol knowledge, so I just ordered a Shirley Temple and got a beer for my Mr. Beardly. Sadly, I was not even carded for his beer. ;_;

It's funny, even though I'm now legally allowed to drink, I really don't care to. Sure, I enjoy a nice glass of wine at fancy meals, or a can of Mike's Hard on a day off, but I don't see the fun in heavy drinking. Plus, with my anti-depressant, even just a few sips put me straight to sleep.

In general, life seems to be getting better every day. I mean, I became happily content quite soon after I realized that I needed to just live my life and not worry about things outside of my control. It's just the right amount of happiness, with just enough interruptions to remind me to be thankful for all the wonderful people I have in my life. It's thanks to my support team, from old friends I hear from once or twice a year, to my family, and especially the man who loves me for who I am, every little part!