What's the point of being on the deans list? Oh whoop dee doo, I'm a smarty pants. I knew that >.< That's why I can be lazy and still get A's; I know all the shortcuts to take, and where to put in real effort. I don't need some damn piece of paper telling me I'm badass. Now if I got another scholarship out of it, that'd be something worth celebrating. It's a good thing I was born smart, because I sure as hell don't have looks or wealth.
Oh, that's another thing, dear interwebz: I'm poor. Yeah, even the government doesn't want my taxes >.< Ehh, some people get trapped in poverty, others get born into it and learn to work their ass off to achieve their dreams. I'm working on the latter. I've never had a job I didn't enjoy doing, even if I kind of hated it.
As weird as I know this is going to sound, I love helping people find what they need. I love being their "bitch", I guess would be the colloquial term for it. When I worked at the library, I liked to help people find good books to read. When I worked at a flower shop, I loved helping people find and pick the flowers they liked best. And I would carry things, and take orders, and honestly enjoyed every minute of it. I guess I'm a little weird.
Mn! I also stumbled across a manga that I have fallen in love with! It's called Cosplay Animal! Basically it's about a quirky girl who likes to dress up in cosplays and a school uniform, and it reminds me so much of myself!!! Other than cons and my friends in Anime club, I find it hard to find people who accept this part of me... But it's so much fun to be someone else! It's so awesome to dress up like a cute pokemon and be loved and adored by almost everyone! No one ever wants to give me a hug dressed as an average college student. T_T I also miss wearing my high school uniform. I miss being the cute-and-weird school girl. I miss the comfort of my uniform. The ease of having my outfit pre-determined every morning, and yet it was always so goddamned adorable! *sparkly eyes*
I'm 20. I'm getting too old and before I know it, I won't be able to dress up and be cute anymore! I'll just be... weird. I'll never be able to pull of sexy quite right, but at least I can do cute. For now.
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