This article was very inspiring, and I have to say, I agree for the most part~! Makes me feel good about being single, because it's mostly true. I haven't had a male friendship since junior high, before my relationship. It feel kinda nice to talk to guys on friendly terms again. I forgot how weird they can be. Actually... other than my ex, I've never had heterosexual male friends before! XD (Now my best friend from Kindergarden through elementary school... he was a different story! One of the most awesome guys I've ever met, though.)
So earlier today, right after I woke up, this is how I felt:
8:00 AM "Dammit! My ex wont even leave me alone in my sleep! So I had a rough time sleeping last night. My roommates were unnaturally awake and watching a movie together in our common room until 2am, while I was trying to sleep. It was so loud... that's probably what caused my tossing and turning and weird dreams."
The dream:
For some reason, I was in a house or hotel playing video-games, and I guess my ex said that he was going to play with me. But he was acting like an as... just like at Ohayocon! Only in my dream, I actually saw his mean-ass douche face saying nasty things after I waited around for him to join me in playing video-games.
So then I walk into a darkish room with the TV flickering on the faces of two of his friends (but no resemblance to anyone in real life). They were playing video-games, one guy was sitting on a chair and the other was laying in a bed. I asked them WTF was going on with my ex, and they shrugged. But they were nice. Somehow I ended up sitting in bed, sort of snuggled next to the one guy who took my game controller and was helping me get past this one level. (at this point, the video-game featured Fry from Futurama as the main character... it was weird...)
END DREAM
Long story short, the dream wasn't a total fail. It definitely seemed loosely based off the incidents from Ohayocon (minus the video-game snuggling in some random guy's bed. Not like that doesn't seem extremely appealing, though!) Maybe the video-game is life and dream-me is frustrated that my ex didn't keep his promises to help me beat the level (certain life stages), but the dream shows that I'll work hard on my own and maybe another person will come along and pick up where he left off and help me out.
Dreams are so much safer and easier than real life, though. Sure, I could play video games with some random person or guy. But who knows, I could get kidnapped, raped, tortured, murdered, turned into a cannibal's dinner, or worse!
;_; But... I want to go have fun! I want to live my life to the fullest! I want to play video games and not stay stuck at this level! DX
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