I know, I know, I need to just shut the hell up.

Talking to a good old friend of mine has helped me relax a little more about the ex and such.

I'm sure everyone is tired of hearing me whine and moan about my ex (hell, even I'm sick of it.) I've started brainstorming a daily mantra, to help myself get out of this mindset.

"No matter how much you have loved this person, nor how much energy you put into this relationship, you have to do your best to let things go. He abandoned you. There might not be anything wrong with you, except that HE wanted to spend more time messing around with his friends and being immature, while avoiding responsibility and the rest of the real world. Perhaps he was afraid of responsibility and settling down, while you were totally ready to commit.. You are a good person. You are fine on your own, but you would make an awesome girlfriend to someone more deserving of you. You deserve someone who can give you as much as you have to give to them.

I know that thinking about it is how you deal with confusing emotions, so go right ahead. But know that there are more important things to think about once you are done. The future is open, with many doors and possibilities. Stop thinking that maybe you can revive the dead. Stop. It's not going to happen. Focus on those who have not abandoned you. Focus on those who truly want to be in your company, to hear your words, to tell you their feelings and fears, those who put trust into you. And most importantly, focus on yourself. "

I'm so dull.... T_T