I'm done.

I'm done with men. Really. I am.

I'm done letting those creatures make me cry. I'm done letting them get under my skin, confuse me, hurt me.

I just want to punch something right now.

I can't believe I let this happen. I can't believe I'm so stupid and needy. I can't believe I'm foolish enough to keep letting myself get hurt and frustrated and upset so easily. I can't believe I let other people push me around or try to pressure me, even if its in ways that might be beneficial to me in the long run.

Okay, so having a few minutes of "quiet time" in the bathroom helped. Got some of those nasty emotions out of my system without having to embarrass myself by making a scene.

I think maybe the problem is just that I'm having social overload. I've been visiting so many new people with Flower and Fabio, and I've been in almost constant human social contact (except when I sleep... hell, even THEN there's been too much socializing!) I miss having some alone time, to just be... me. Being around people I don't know freaks me the fuck out and really drains me.

And I'm just tired of letting people try to force me into things out of my control. I need SOME sort of control in my life. I know I'm not perfect, but I feel like everyone keeps trying to point out the imperfect parts of me that are OUT OF MY CONTROL. That's so not cool. I need constructive criticism. But dammit if you're going to say things that dont serve any sort of purpose then you can just leave me the hell alone.

I'm going to end this post with an admission. I can't wait to meet a man that understands the way women think and feel, or at least one who is willing to learn. They probably don't exist, but that's okay.